The Snowball Effect

it seems that whenever I am able to accrue a sum of money into my savings...something comes up or a problem pops out of nowhere, not even a result by my own doing, and I have to pay for it out of my own pocket and to be knocked back down to being broke once again.. why does this happen.. It seems it's happened quite frequently this passed year.. I guess that's what rainy day money is for though right.. it seems i'm the only one that saves money around here... and I just can't fathom why people don't have the natural inclination or foresight to at least save up money here or there. I have so much rage and I can't help it...but since when is the world fair and only the people that make mistakes have to pay for it. I just gotta try and stay strong for myself...no sense in losing it...what money is gained can simply/hopefully be gained again.

hmm Tis' A New Year

of course this was six days ago lol. I woke up today, refreshed, alive, and full of energy. No1 is going to take anything away from me today. Listening to music and enjoying the sun.

Got accepted to a university
Trying to stay healthy.
Staying away from drama as best as I can and that's all I can do.

Food For Thought

Today, my Brother and I are making dinner..again :D.. We're having potatoes and sweet potatoes, with pork loin. I'm sure it'll come out swell since he and I are making it.

The weather is dreadful. I don't believe it's stopped raining for the past few days at least and that's been just a terrible feeling. All I can do is just stay inside, go out when I need to, and do work around the house since I can't do any activities with my brother outside. At least the grass is growing and the trees are getting nourishment as well..and that can't be bad for nature.

I Gotta Run So That I Can Walk

Back from my little vacation with my Mother and sisters... It was filled with a lot of great food (I probably gained 5-10 pounds @.@), and a lot of drama. I was sad to go because I came over to visit my Mother mainly, and mad because the drama that was caused by my sisters made it unbearable to be there. I kept thinking the whole time "if you saw a train coming directly in front of you, and instead of moving out of the way to dodge it...why would you intently stand in the way?"

I got comics, which was one of the high points for the vacation 8/. I got B.P.R.D. 5 and it turned out to be an acceptable ending of the arc it's on. I'm being vague for those who haven't read it yet. ttyl

Luck of The Draw

I've gotten things done today because I've gotten the energy to do them. I usually can't stay idle too long because i'll get fidgety. The weather was nice, not too cold...not too hot, and it wasn't raining, and you can definitely tell that the winter is coming. At night there is a certain chill that somehow gets right to the bone....where by moving you've somehow broke out of your barrier and are relented to the harsh bite of the cold...I noticed it this morning as I sat frozen.. thinking of things to do and while I moved the air around me assaulted me from all sides. hmm..ttyl

A Man Without Fear?

I'm starting to believe that this is a fruitless goal to reach because there is no person in the world who doesn't fear one thing or another. I want to become someone who.. has very little to fear because of the efforts I've taken. This semester I set out to give 100%, and yet I failed because I let things around me effect me strongly. However, I also succeeded because no matter how hard the obstacles were around me...I didn't bend, I didn't break, I pressed on, and I finished my class and that's a good start. One thing is for sure.. I'm a fighter..and I want to keep moving forward.

Winning Isn't Everything....

I've watched the Lombardi Documentary.. and it has made me take a step back and look at my life... There's been a lot i've been working on i.e. life, personal beliefs, work ethic, and understanding the people around me. After watching the powerful documentary I believe that I need to take these practices and take them to the next level if I can, and if I fail that it's ok because I will have attempted to better myself, as a person, even further. I want to believe more in myself, the efforts I'm taking, and impose more will in the endeavors that I can control. This is only something that time will tell.